Redundancy

I love her.. I love her not.. she did it right.. she did it wrong.. why me.. why me not.. No, I am not plucking the petals of a flower, one year long and still these questions come to my mind. I try not to answer them and concentrate on what I was doing. Two long weeks and every day she came in my dreams. We did not have conversation, we acted like strangers.

I don't understand the root cause for this extreme obsession for a human who spent few days with me and seems to affect the rest of my life. I don't understand how I was made a complete stranger overnight. I don't understand why I miss her every second and unknowingly wait for her though I know she is gone forever. She was not even near to the pretty faces I have seen in my life. Her body was nowhere perfect for me to get attracted physically. She didn't have those long beautiful hairs. And neither she spoke good language.

Trrrrrrrrrrnnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggg.... Oh! the alarm rang, it's eight in the morning and this is how I get up every morning.