Thought taught

Have been writing all poems lately and now I realize I stopped writing what I actually used to write in this space earlier. I thought poems would be easier way of saying many things in less words and thought it was the better way. But seems like it is difficult for others to decipher or rather no one has that extra time to pause and ponder what was intended.

Have been experimenting a lot with my personality since few months now. This time I tried to be the baddy, a straight forward guy without any filter between thoughts and mouth, shedding my natural nature of thinking before speaking. Result? Phew!! Don't ask, it has been difficult. People say they like the straight forwards, but they find it difficult to digest the facts. Thats why things are always marketed with expensive wrappings, now I understand why? People have complex way of making logical decision. They say one thing, follow another and do something else. But still they stick to what they say. I too do the same, I did that without knowing and have been pointed by the people who observed me.

Have been a difficult time with this new personality. People have their own firm conclusion about me now and everything that they had thought of me earlier (the good ones) all those are blown away. I know they have misunderstood me, proving them wrong will only make things worse. Let's leave it to the time to decide. My professionalism has been challenged by this new nature. People started thinking I mix the personal and professional life.

What I have known lately is that, every individual is selfish to some extent. But we don't acknowledge to this fact. Every individual wants and shows himself to be thought of as a good person, whereas he himself knows from within that he is not so. Every individual is afraid of sharing the meanest or the selfish thought that he is having with his closer ones, just for the sake that they will change their opinion about him and start judging him with that thought. They don't understand it's just a thought and not he himself.

Humans !! more you try to understand this topic more it gets complicated. Let me stick to my basic nature from now on and let people know me by that only, enough of too much experimenting with these.