This is how it begins

The banyan tree that I saw today morning looked more greener and richer. I could see its leaves dancing on the tunes of air blowing around it, reminding me of the tribals dancing in their festivals. Seems like the pills are working to nullify those thoughts which were sprouted by the actions of that special person of my life. I gazed at the sky and controlled the question that frequently trouble me "why this happened to me?". The brain says, ofcourse she wasn't that beautiful as my college crush was but the heart can't come out of the magical spell she casted on me. I don't know what it is, which makes me think again and again of her repeatedly. Is this love? If so, why is she married to someone else and why is that she didn't ask her parents to get married to me? Is it the one sided love, as it always has been with me. If so, then what was all that we shared together, we cared, we loved, we spoke, the promises, the dreams and the spiritual bondage. Oh, I miss all of them. She was the perfect one for me untill she broke my heart. How on earth she can give the same name to her husband which she had kept for me with so much of love, I loved that name so much. She was so happy when I was begging and crying infront of her to come back to me. It is not the one whom I loved. The innocence and the care that she is to show was the invitations for me to love her. Her kind heart was the one which gave the key to my heart to unlock the happiness of love.